What is the line from being serious and obnoxious?

Hmm.
I was thinking today about how i probably come off as a non-serious person because i am always laughing. Well the cold hard truth is that i can be very serious and i hope people realize that. I want to make sure that i am taken serious when i am in fact being serious. I love laughing with my friends and being funny, because i am good at making people laugh. I just don't know if that is the rep i want.

What is the line from being too serious-to- too obnoxious?

or is there even a line?

i have no idea.

I really don't even know what i am talking about..
maybe it's because it is really late.
and the coffee wore off...



night folks.

It has just dawned on me.

I am kind of horrible at making decisions sometimes. I really struggle with it. I mean don't get me wrong, I am great when it comes to making decisions for my own good, but it is other things that i am not so good at. I seem to always put other people's feelings before my own. That probably isn't good. I guess i try to please everyone. I need to stop worrying about how someone else takes it when i say something. I really can't control how someone reacts to something i do or say. I think I should start worrying about myself more. I have gotten better with that and i think it has been working out.
Getting caught up in drama is something i am great at avoiding. But i guess when i say something to someone and they take it the wrong way, i feel horrible. Even though i cannot control how they feel.

so again, i need to worry about myself.
Not saying i am not going to worry about others as well, because i do, i just need to relax and stop worrying.


period.

My favorite.

My favorite thing in the whole wide world is when teachers give you an assignment and you have no idea what to do. Ok like you just can't throw a paper at us and expect us to not have questions. Also when you have additional assignments that go along with the original assignment. Maybe we should get like a paper that shows us what we have to hand in and what we don't. Because it is really neat when i go on edline and see stuff on there that i had no clue we had to do.
I know there is pressure on teachers, but knowing my grade is important to me and i hate when big assignments fail to get graded. Especially after months. Spring sports are coming up and i would be really happy to know my grades.

yep.

oh, shoot.

Thanks procrastination. You are by far, the most awesome thing in the world (;

Don't you hate procrastinating?
It's like a disease, I tell you.

You just keep telling yourself, hey, i can just do that tomorrow.






TOMORROW-9:30pm


crap. It is almost 10. Dang i am tired. I guess i can do it tomorrow.



THE NEXT TOMORROW- 10pm

zzzzzzzzzzzz



alright, you get what i mean.
I hate when i have a massive project and i whip it all together within a few days in which it is due. The sad part is, i'm pretty much a perfectionist, so i won't allow myself to hand in something that is worth 2 points. I go all out and do above and beyond on projects usually. Oh well, who needs sleep after all? ;)

Anyone have any meds to cure the disease of procrastination??
:)

stress, which is eating us all

These past couple weeks have been horrific and for reasons i don't know if i am able to bluntly spill out. So many things are going on. Could i possibly take in anymore? That is something i am questioning as of now. I am having a massive brain overload and everything just seems to not want to go my way. I am not, by any means complaining, lets get that straight right away.

Stress.

That "factor" is killing me. It's like stress, stress, stress, over and over again. Once i wipe one off my slate, there is a whole army of little stress factors coming right my way. As my friends say, i need to relax and stop worrying so much. Which is true, don't get me wrong, but isn't it good to be stressed sometimes? Stress pushes you to do better, right? Is it when stress pushes you overboard that it's bad? I have no idea. All I know is that maybe i should start talking about my "feelings" more. That is something that i definetly need help with. I sit and deal with everything independently, which is also good, sometimes.

School.

^^ Is something i care deeply about. I love doing well in school. I basically won't allow myself to do bad. I work so hard, i basically jump to any chance of extra credit even when i have a perfect grade as is. It's good though, right? Or am i pushing myself too far? I constantly think about being successful. blah.

Maybe what I am trying to get at, is that maybe we should all take it easy on ourselves. If your doing the best you can, then that's all that matters.
By the way, I really hope you found some meaning to this blog. It is kind of all over the place. I don't even know if i understand it.

tah tah for now