Warning Sign
by: Coldplay


A warning sign,
I missed the good part then I realized,
I started looking and the bubble burst.
I started looking for excuses.

Come on in,
I've gotta tell you what a state I'm in,
I've gotta tell you in my loudest tones,
That I started looking for a warning sign.

When the truth is,
I miss you.
Yeah the truth is,
That I miss you so.

A warning sign,
You came back to haunt me and I realized,
she was an island and I passed you by,
You were an island to discover.

Come on in,
I've gotta tell you what state I'm in,
I've gotta tell you in my loudest tones,
That I started looking for a warning sign.

When the truth is,
I miss you.
Yeah the truth is,
That I miss you so.

And I'm tired,
I should not have let you go.

So I crawl back into your open arms.
Yes, I crawl back into your open arms.
And I crawl back into your open arms.
Yes, I crawl back into your open arms...



This song is really great.
You should listen to it :)

Coldplay is always and forever going to be an amazing band



PEACE.

schoools out forrrr summer :)

hi!!
wow, so i cannot believe that school is pretty much over.
tomorrow is the last day.
eeeek.
I am so pumped for summer, NO HOMEWORK :)

Hopefully during the summer, i can become sane again and recover from all the stress that i have been going through because of school.

I turn 16 in a week, that is cool. Except for the fact that i am super young for our grade so everyone else is already pretty much driving so it won't even be cool when i get my license. I also go on vacation the day after my birthday. We are going to Florida :/
Pretty sure I can't even tell you how many times I have been there but oh well, a vacation is a vacation i suppose.

I am sad.

So out of excitement I ordered tickets to a Taking back Sunday and Anberlin concert which is this Tuesday. I was so pumped about it until I got to school and realized that my orchestra concert is the same night of the concert. Awesome, right? Wow.. I was so pumped for the concert that i totally looked over the Orch. thing. This stinks really bad because I would rather go to the Taking back sunday concert obviously. So yeah, now I can't go and i have to go to my concert.

But hey, it's a little thing called responsibility, right?

hi!!

Here is the play by play of my weekend, which you probably could care less about, but hey I have to write this blog. I hung out with Ally on Friday and went to applebees with a few friends from Austin. Then me and ally went to go hang out with Logan. On saturday I went over to Mel's house and helped her watch her cute cousin Logic. Then, I had to go up to the cities that night and go to a minnesota Orchestra concert. It was pretty cool because the people in the Orchestra are like amazing. There was a male celloist who played all his songs from memory.

Once we got back, me and courtney spent the night at Abby's..
That was intersesting.
Abby decided she was going to throw a Jenga block and courtney's head and she started gushing blood from her eyebrow.

hhaa..

So then I came home and then went to MAC night for J-10.

yep, pretty much it

New era of music

Have you noticed how much music has changed these past few years and all the new genres of music coming out?

For instance, one of my favorite bands, MGMT, has really came out. With it's catchy, upbeat, and electronic sounds, people cannot resist.

I think it's awesome that so many people are leaving pop music and rap behind and looking into more underground music, it is really so much better.

Some bands to look for:

MGMT
Empire of the Sun
Guster
Digitalism
peter bjorn and john
The sounds
DAMIEN RICE
Modest Mouse
Arcade Fire
The Shins
Timmy Curran
The Weepies



etc.
:)

maybe you will always be just a little out of reach

Satellite
by: guster


Shining like a work of art
Hanging on a wall of stars
Are you what I think you are?

You're my satellite
You're riding with me tonight
Passenger side, lighting the sky
Always the first star that I find
You're my satellite

Elevator to the moon
Whistling a favorite tune
Trying to get a closer view

You're my satellite
You're riding with me tonight
Passenger side, lighting the sky
Always the first star that I find
You're my satellite

Maybe you will always be
Just a little out of reach

You're my satellite
You're riding with me tonight
Passenger side, lighting the sky
Always the first star that I find
You're my satellite
You're my satellite



This has been one of my favorite songs for a while now. The lyrics are amazing. To me, it means that this person is all you ever wanted and perfect for you, but for some reason you just can't reach them for whatever reason. It's kind of saying that the person is right there but you can't get them. I think a lot of people can relate to this and what makes it cool is that it's kind of a downer song but it is upbeat which makes it awesome.

I suggest listening to guster (:

go away annoyance.

Aggravating, bothersome, disturbing, irritating, troublesome, and vexatious are all perfect synonyms for the word annoying.
So many things happen on a daily basis that really just annoy me. I have no patience for anything.
Don't you hate it when your really busy with something and someone basically hovers over your shoulder and continuesly asks what your doing? Or when your downstairs and someone else is upstairs trying to talk to you and you can't hear them so they just keep yelling, it's like wow how about you physically come downstairs to tell the story. Another thing that really sucks is when your little brothers come up to your room door and sit and pound on it for no reason and then when you finally open it, they say something completely irrelevant. Or when your doing something and then someone asks what your doing when it is pretty much clear what you are doing from where they are standing. ughhh. It's like uhh i'm doing homework....OBVIOUSLY. Don't you hate it when people make random assumptions about you?!??!?! ughhhhhhhhh. Drama freaks are the most annoying people in the entire universe. It's like wow get away from me if you are going to bring drama into my non- dramatic life.. thanks.



Sorry....
Just had to throw that out there :)

comment this if you agree to any of them:)

I wanna be like that mountain, I wanna stand taller and bigger than the rest

So I was thinking this weekend about friendship. I think it is safe to say that everyone has that certain friend where they can be super honest too and completely upfront with. A friend where if they do something you don't agree with, you can tell them and call them out. It's a really good friend to have because you can tell them anything and put everything out on the table without upsetting them or anything of that sort.
Friendships always have flaws of course. Don't ever try to one up your friends, because friendship isn't a competition on who can do something better. So many people are willing to throw their friendships away because of a ridiculous argument or even about a guy.
It is not a real friendship if your friends with someone one day and then hate them the other and so on. To be honest, it is severely annoying. A friend is someone who is there for you no matter what and tries to work things out rather then see who can beat the other on something. Don't try to stand taller than your friends because in the end, you go through everything with them and it is not worth it to ruin your friendship.

complaining;;

Everyone complains sometimes, right? Well, I kind of want to touch on freedom of speech. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion and should be allowed to speak their mind on something. So many people have their own views on things and I think it is wrong when someone will try and tell you what to say and what not to say. Same goes for religion. I can't stand it when people will try to convert you to their ways and tell you what to believe. Can't I make that decision for myself? I am my own person.

When i talk about freedom of speech I don't mean that we should all just go screaming swear words down the hall, but I am saying that when the time comes that you have to state your own opinion, you should be able to do so without someone telling you it's wrong. I'm so sick of basically being told what to do.

Love.

Does anyone even know what love is? You see all these teens telling their boyfriends and girlfriends that they love each other. Get real guys, love is not teen romance in high school. Teen sex is another thing. Teens saying Oh, we love eachother so we decided to have sex. In all reality, I don't feel that you are emotionally mature enough to handle all the stuff that comes along with sex. The guy can be all like hey, I love you. But how much of that is true? That is what you have to ask yourself. The word love should not just be thrown out there so casually.

Swiper is the best Villain out there.

My family and I went to the cities this weekend to have family "bonding" time and we stayed in a hotel for two nights. Everything seemed to have been heading for a good start. By the time we got to the cities, it was about 430. We ate at the olive garden and had a very stramge waiter that basically just stood by our table and said nothing. Kind of creepy. He would come to our table and rearange stuff on it and every now and then he would try and say something funny but it came out really strange and awkwardly. poor guy. On top of it, we got sat by these two girls that would just not stop talking about Dora the explorer. Your probably thinking that they are younger kids, but no, they were like 17. I was trying to eat and all i could hear was "Swiper is the best villain ever." and "So i was seriously watching Dora the Explorer for 5 hours today and i could't figure out something that she said in spanish." blah blah blah. Anyways, After that was finally done, we took off for our hotel. Right when we talked in, this weird smell of covered up fish was in the air. It's like they tryed covering up the smell with like febreeze. I'm like great, our hotel is a dead fish exhibit. It turns out that the hotel we were staying at was hosting some kind of fly fishing contest. This hotel was actually really nice. It was like a 4 star hotel. We got up to our room and got settled then decided to head for the waterpark. Upon entering, we encountered many things. You have the little teen romance couples all over eachother and then you have the occasional little 8 year olds that do nothing but splash the crap out of you in hopes of making you angry. Sweet. I was hoping to relax in the Lazy river when all of the sudden this little 3 year old kid just decides he is going to jump right in. So i react fast and swim over to him to help when out of no where is mother flippen belly flops in after her son. She just about landed on me and I'm not talking like she is skinny. She was like 290 probably. Why wasn't she watching her son? That is what really angered me, because my little brother cooper is 3 and he was completely supervised by either my parents or me the whole time. So after awhile we decided that we were going to leave. We got back to the hotel of fish and attempted to get some sleep. Well, my mom and I were awoken a few million times by my dad's loud snoring. Ugh, You know what, you really cannot do anything about it either. My advice to you is fall asleep first.

Saturday Morning we all woke up and got ready to go to the mall. My little brothers wanted to go on rides obviously so we went to the amusment park. While waiting in line, i was surrounded by couples groping eachother.. I really dislike it when people do that. I really can't stand it, because who really wants to see that? Why can't they just aviod public display of affection. I don't mean to be all whatever, but really, what would their parents think? Anyways, I was standing in line with my little brother to go on that air balloon little kid ride and there was this guy with his son. He was probably like 28. All of the sudden he was all like hey how's it going. :/ It was in a creepy way., so i kind of just stood there.

I swear I was in the twilight zone all weekend. When we got back to the hotel saturday night, we decided to go check out the pool. The pool wasn't even in a closed off room, it was like in the dead center of the hotel with a gate around it. The hot tub was huge but the flippen whirlpool was broken. YIPPPEEE. Not to mention there was a bunch of teens there for i don't know what reason. The thing that really gets on my nerves is when people talk like no one else is around. An obvious couple just walks out of the hot tub and starts exiting the pool area and their whole group left in the hot tub screamed "Oh, where are you guys going? SEX EQUALS BABIES!" Wow, come on, that is both immature and innapropriate. There were little kids everywhere.

My brother Peyton, 9, went to go swim in the pool and there was this man literally feeding his little girl pizza while she was swimming... There were people practicing fly fishing right outside the gate and at one point the fishing pole thing came back and hit my brother. I'm like really, that is cool. Maybe they could have practiced some where, where the potential risk of hitting civilians was a lower chance.

We got back to the room and wanted to get some sleep, but yet again, I can't beacuse of the loud snoring. ugh. We then we woke up and started heading home. On the drive back this random lady driving in her car next to us just sat there and flicked us off. We didn't even do anything. It was really bizarre.

But anyways, Here I am now, home, and back in reality.

Nicholas Cage

and national treasure...
oh boy..

what a horrible movie..


anyways, not what i am here to talk about.

My weekend was so fast. :(
I hung out with some friends on friday and then got up bright and early on saturday morning to take the accuplacer test at riverland. I guess they lost the list of people who were registered for the test so we had to wait forever and then we finally got put in a room and it just turns out that out of all the computers, me and jocelyn pick the two that don't work so then we had to go out in the hall and wait for some lady with the name mindy to help us. We then got put into a room with like 6 computers and basically didn't get to start our test till about an hour after everyone else. Not a big deal. Then me and Jocelyn walked to the mall and saw a bunch of cats up for adoption. They were cute. haa that was random. Then my cousin Devin picked me up and i went to Austin and stayed over there. Today I went tanning with Mel and then just sat at my house.

Whoooopppp


sweeeeeett weekend.

night guys :)

things that happen when you DON'T want them to happen

It seems like I only get sick when i have something very important coming up. I have all state choir auditions in a little under a week and tiger's roar around the same time.
ohh boy..

I'm really happy that i have a sore throat.
:/

This is seriously horrible. Have you ever noticed how some things happen at times when you really don't want them.

It's basically inevitable.

I guess i just have to deal with it.
It actually may be because i fail to wear coats sometimes in the winter :/

who knows....

What is the line from being serious and obnoxious?

Hmm.
I was thinking today about how i probably come off as a non-serious person because i am always laughing. Well the cold hard truth is that i can be very serious and i hope people realize that. I want to make sure that i am taken serious when i am in fact being serious. I love laughing with my friends and being funny, because i am good at making people laugh. I just don't know if that is the rep i want.

What is the line from being too serious-to- too obnoxious?

or is there even a line?

i have no idea.

I really don't even know what i am talking about..
maybe it's because it is really late.
and the coffee wore off...



night folks.

It has just dawned on me.

I am kind of horrible at making decisions sometimes. I really struggle with it. I mean don't get me wrong, I am great when it comes to making decisions for my own good, but it is other things that i am not so good at. I seem to always put other people's feelings before my own. That probably isn't good. I guess i try to please everyone. I need to stop worrying about how someone else takes it when i say something. I really can't control how someone reacts to something i do or say. I think I should start worrying about myself more. I have gotten better with that and i think it has been working out.
Getting caught up in drama is something i am great at avoiding. But i guess when i say something to someone and they take it the wrong way, i feel horrible. Even though i cannot control how they feel.

so again, i need to worry about myself.
Not saying i am not going to worry about others as well, because i do, i just need to relax and stop worrying.


period.

My favorite.

My favorite thing in the whole wide world is when teachers give you an assignment and you have no idea what to do. Ok like you just can't throw a paper at us and expect us to not have questions. Also when you have additional assignments that go along with the original assignment. Maybe we should get like a paper that shows us what we have to hand in and what we don't. Because it is really neat when i go on edline and see stuff on there that i had no clue we had to do.
I know there is pressure on teachers, but knowing my grade is important to me and i hate when big assignments fail to get graded. Especially after months. Spring sports are coming up and i would be really happy to know my grades.

yep.

oh, shoot.

Thanks procrastination. You are by far, the most awesome thing in the world (;

Don't you hate procrastinating?
It's like a disease, I tell you.

You just keep telling yourself, hey, i can just do that tomorrow.






TOMORROW-9:30pm


crap. It is almost 10. Dang i am tired. I guess i can do it tomorrow.



THE NEXT TOMORROW- 10pm

zzzzzzzzzzzz



alright, you get what i mean.
I hate when i have a massive project and i whip it all together within a few days in which it is due. The sad part is, i'm pretty much a perfectionist, so i won't allow myself to hand in something that is worth 2 points. I go all out and do above and beyond on projects usually. Oh well, who needs sleep after all? ;)

Anyone have any meds to cure the disease of procrastination??
:)

stress, which is eating us all

These past couple weeks have been horrific and for reasons i don't know if i am able to bluntly spill out. So many things are going on. Could i possibly take in anymore? That is something i am questioning as of now. I am having a massive brain overload and everything just seems to not want to go my way. I am not, by any means complaining, lets get that straight right away.

Stress.

That "factor" is killing me. It's like stress, stress, stress, over and over again. Once i wipe one off my slate, there is a whole army of little stress factors coming right my way. As my friends say, i need to relax and stop worrying so much. Which is true, don't get me wrong, but isn't it good to be stressed sometimes? Stress pushes you to do better, right? Is it when stress pushes you overboard that it's bad? I have no idea. All I know is that maybe i should start talking about my "feelings" more. That is something that i definetly need help with. I sit and deal with everything independently, which is also good, sometimes.

School.

^^ Is something i care deeply about. I love doing well in school. I basically won't allow myself to do bad. I work so hard, i basically jump to any chance of extra credit even when i have a perfect grade as is. It's good though, right? Or am i pushing myself too far? I constantly think about being successful. blah.

Maybe what I am trying to get at, is that maybe we should all take it easy on ourselves. If your doing the best you can, then that's all that matters.
By the way, I really hope you found some meaning to this blog. It is kind of all over the place. I don't even know if i understand it.

tah tah for now

Amber sweet is addicted to the knife.

hey folks(: If you haven't seen "Repo! the genetic Opera," you really should. It is a dark type of film and like a musical. It stars Alexa Vega and Paris Hilton. The movie takes place in "the near future" and an epidemic broke out causing people's organs to fail. Well, since people couldn't afford to get surgery, many died. Then a business called GENECO uprised. They give you the surgery and you pay later. The catch is, if you fail to pay by the deadline...the repo man comes to reposses the organ!
Alright, so you are probably thinking wow this movie sounds really weird and worthless. I'm telling you, it's great (:
It just came out, so go rent it!

oh, and the soundtrack is amazing. Check that out too.
By the way, the headline of this blog is from a song from the movie.
Paris Hilton plays Amber Sweet.

alright

bye(:

It's a shame

During these last couple weeks, I have really begun to notice the changes in some people. It's like their minds are overtaken with the image of being "cool."
What is "cool?"
Is it the fake appearance that you portray?
or the real you?

Why would you want to be someone your not? It's like the people you think are your friends are liking you for all the wrong reasons and not because of who you really are. People like this tend to not only, neglect other people's feelings, but their own too. You see people that change the sport they are in just to be with people they think are "cool." This is ridiculous. If people don't like you for who you are, why should you change? Obviously they aren't your friend if you have to put on an act for them to accept you. You actually lose friends in the process of trying to fit in. You push your true friends away and bring the materialistic people in.
I feel sorry for people that act this way. It must suck having to go allow with what everyone else does....

apples to apples...

Happy new year (:

So on new years, Mel, Kaila, Brandon, Ally, Marley, and I were at Mel's playing apples to apples.

I of course have really crappy cards so when a category is drawn, I just but down a random card.

The category was rough
and the pile of cards consisted of bruce willis, Abe lincoln, and ninjas..

hahhaahhahahah

Oh and then the category "Smelly" came up.
and the card AIDS was thrown in
ahahahaahhaahhahaahahhahaahhahah

oh and cheap hotel rooms..


we watched step brothers too, i'm pretty positive that is the funniest movie ever created.


hey mel, if your reading this,

"hey I'm aunt carol"

aahahaahahaha



night people (:

goodbye winter break

so long sleeping in, I will miss you.

blahh.

Tomorrow is really going to suck especially because I woke up at 1pm today and tomorrow I will have to roll out of bed at around 6am.
:(

I'm thinking about just sleeping in and going to school looking like a hobo tomorrow.
that should be nice.

This winter break was so nice.
No drama, just hanging out.

now, back to school




joy.

venting.. i suppose...

Ok, I hate having to come to this blog thinger and complain or vent about things but honestly it's all I can even think about doing.
Don't you ever get rally frustrated when people constantly think so high of themselves. It's like hey people, snap back into reality, not everything revolves around you. Some people act like the world would stop turning if something happened to them. You see all these hot heads that attend ALHS and it really irritates me. It's like if someone truly thinks your awesome, then they will tell you, so quit walking around like your better then everyone else.
Honestly, when I hear someone talking about me, I don't go and freak out at them because really, that is so immature. Wouldn't you rather just blow it off? Why sink down to someone else's level of stupidity.
But anywho, my favorite people of all are the ones that talk so badly about another person that they don't even know. It's like wow, maybe if you took time to actually speak to the person and get to know them, you would maybe actually like them....


hmm.

but what do i know..

just saying