happiness;;find it.

You, of all people should not be doing this to me. It's like you have me under your control. The thing is I stray away from contact with you, but you bring me right back. I don't want that feeling anymore. I don't want to stand to look at you with your innocent eyes because i see through them. You act like i don't know. Just as I finally think It's over, it's like it has just begun, all over again. The second chances that we always take, are done. The mind games and the manipulation games are over with. I'm gone, I've been gone. It's Pathetic how you make me feel, it's like you want sympathy. You have no audience, I'm sorry. You've done what you wanted and you have hurt who you wanted. You cannot strip me of my pride and dignity and i will not change for you. That is the exact reason why we have ended up like this, "change." I never loved you, although i may have said i did. I am yet still a growing teenager. I don't know what love is. I may be falling apart, but don't worry because sweetie, it's not because of you. The way you look at me and the way you try to 'suck up' to me. I'm not buying it. You think you would learn by now. The way you talk to me, as if to think there is any chance of my response. Forget it. At one point i valued your words, but now i wish to never hear them again. Naive is what you are. To think for one second i would turn back to you and come running into your arms, false. At one point you brought me happiness, but who knew that happiness could be taken away just moments after it was given to you. You bring things up to intentionally hurt me but what you don't know, is that I'm stronger then you think. It's as if you do things to get a sort of reaction from me. The truth is i cannot bear to be in the same room with you because it makes me sick. You thought you could control my life, look how far that got you. I have nothing left to say to you because truthfully, it would take me hours just to tell you the general idea of what i think of you. No, we cannot be friends because there is no remaining shot of that. It's over. Let me move on, do not drag me into anything anymore. Please, for your sake darling, know that I don't care. Let that guide you. I am so relieved that the pain is gone. The way you blame everything on me, as a sort of way to have something over me. You don't. You brought this on yourself. Quit assuming and blaming. It won't get you far at all. The truth is, that you cannot move on, and you blame me for it. It's wrong.
You have not a thing on me.
It's as if i have wiped the slate clean but at the same time, removed you from any thought i ever had.

I have found happiness.
Please, find yours.
Anyone is deserving of happiness.
even you.