building up hopes

I can't keep doing this to myself, I build up my hopes for something and then in the end, it doesn't work out. I say to myself, hey maybe this time it will be different. It never is. I strive to be able to depend on someone and to trust someone. He keeps telling me that he won't be away forever and that he will come back for me and be with me. I want so desperately to believe him. The truth is, I don't want to wait. Have you ever loved someone so much that it physically causes you pain? And yet I go through this each and everyday. It hurts knowing that things might not work out the way that I would like them to. I am willing to wait and I know he is too, it's just hard. it just seems like every person I get attached to, just leaves me in the end. In all cases it's unintentional of course, but I would just like someone to simply stay for once. I love him. I know I do. People say that you can't fall in love at this age, but honestly, I don't care. It's a feeling you can't even begin to fully describe. He lives so far from me, but yet I feel so close to him at the same time. I trust that he will come back, that's what he tells me. It just all goes back to me getting my hopes up. He tells me it's for real this time. But wasn't it for real the last few times? I don't know. But i do know that I love him and he loves me. So that's worth something and worth fighting for, right? That's something that I will forever trust in. I guess I am going around in circles with this whole thing, so i might just stop now, while I'm ahead....